June 16th, 2000

shhh

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i cant find kristys phone number so i couldnt call her back, but i did call danny back... looks like dustin silt his wrists again and my friend jamies little brother got in to a car accident :o( danny wants me to go over there tonight to hang out but i dont know if i want to :o/ oh and franny got another tattoo
shhh

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i just received and email from the first person i ever chatted with on icq... im glad his email address hasnt changed cause hes a real nice guy :o) i was gonna be disappointed if i didnt hear back from him
shhh

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"Deep Red is blurring my eyes
I'll wait in the closet until tonight
I want you to explain your feelings for me
The blade on your skin is what I've wanted to be
I will wait for you to scream and shout, but
You open your mouth, the blood runs out...

The knife cuts through her skin
And your heart starts beating faster
You feel the pressure within
As you look into her eyes..."
shhh

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"You dont scare me much
By the things you say
Want me to be like you
I choose to live this way
You try to rule my world
And hurt me every day
I want to live my life
You want to take my soul away...

It doesnt cost me much
To share my thoughts with you
I know you'll never share
Share my point of view
Its not that easy you know
Not even if you pay
I want to be myself
You want to take my soul away...

You dont scare me much
By the things you say
Just want me to like you
Live my life my way
You try to rule my world
So what can I say?
I want to live my life
You want to take my soul away...

You want to take my soul away..."
shhh

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"You are reaching your goals
But I'm still trapped inside of mine
Before the break of day
You will be gone and far away

In solitude
With no place to run or hide
I hear my own mind cry
And I fall just to see you rise

And I will go down on my knees
And pray the best that I can
I want you to be near...
And I will go down on my kness
And try to make you understand
My deepest fear

With pain in my heart
I will travel on my own
To that place inside
Where I can be alone

In solitude
With no place to run or hide
Again I hear this voice cry out
And I fall just to see you rise

And I will go down on my knees
And pray the best that I can
I want you to be near...
And I will go down on my kness
And try to make you understand
My deepest fear

In solitude
With no place to run or hide
I hear my own mind cry
And I fall just to see you rise

And I will go down on my knees
And pray the best that I can
I want you to be near...
And I will go down on my kness
And try to make you understand
My deepest fear"
shhh

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"You want to cause me death, when you are acting that way
I'm wrapped around your fingertips, I beg you stay
I'd always thought that we were two of a kind
But no we are not, now you can kiss my behind

Oh- you know I cried, but now I'd rather die
Than be with you again
I always tried, but now I've realized
I won't go through this again

Believe it or not, but I'm still alive
You're feeding off my blood just like a kick in the eye
Everytime you hurt me, I lie helpless for a day
I try to stand up but you're in my way

Everytime you hurt me, I lie helpless for a day
I try to stand up but you're in my way

You know I cried, but now I'd rather die
Than be with you again
I always tried, but now I've realized
I won't go through this again

Hey, come back here!!!

Bitch, you know I cried, but now I'd rather die
Than be with you again
I always tried, but now I've realized
I won't go through this again"

shhh

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"I turn around to talk
I face your eyes
Fight replaces fright
To my surprise...
I feel as I'm falling, and I see
Your soul in your eyes
As I die...

I try to stand tall
You roll your eyes
You feel the same way I do
To my surprise...
I feel as we're drowning in the deepest sea
You die, you're gone just like me

Her eyes are staring at me
Empty as the sky
In this moment of tranquility
I realize
This is goodbye..."
shhh

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hmmm... i tried to spy on someone i took off of my icq list and hes on "invisible"mode... i wonder when he started doing that... i have a feeling hes online cause when he was on my list he was always online, but now i cant tell :o/ i wonder if hes in another one of his moods