July 21st, 2000

shhh

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my friend is going off on this porn trip. last night she was sending me pictures of herpes, tonight its pictures of vampire porn
shhh

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awww :o) jag is jealous of the way i talk to others. doesnt he realize i cant talk to him like that anymore... i love him way too much =]
shhh

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lets see, how do i feel... well i have a silly smile on my face that really shouldnt be there. i could be happy if a few things would go my way, but im pretty sure they wont. i guess i would like to get drunk this weekend, but i dont think ill be going out. oh well. i should do something that will help me live a happier life but im not sure what that would be. i feel okay right now. actually, the strangest thing just happened. as i was typing "i feel okay right now" my eyes started to tear up. i guess i know why :o\ so many little things, but i suppose it could be worse. heh
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if i pay my bills and go to beverly hills tomorrow im gonna take myself out to dinner :o) not like im gonna buy myself something expensive but im gonna go way out of my way to get what i want and maybe ill be real slow about it too. ill just take the bus here, take the bus there, ILL TAKE THE FREAKIN BUS EVERYWHERE and every place i go, ill just walk around really slow and think about stuff. i know that cant turn out good but maybe it needs to be done, plus i really need to get away from my computer :o) i wish i could go somewhere really pretty to do that but since i dont have a car i have to stay near bus lines :o\
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her: Cookies in my kitchen. WANT TO EAT THEM!
me: haha :o) cookies made me sick
her: they make me sick too. that's why i always puke them up when i'm done eating them.
me: :o(
her: i can't help it. there must be some special ingredient which makes them end up in the toilet somehow.
me: maybe you eat too many
her: well of course i do! how will i ever be able to puke them if i don't have enough ammunition?