December 19th, 2002



started bleeding. thinking about taking a pain killer. everything hurts. my legs feel like theyre gonna fall off. sitting here bored off my ass isnt helping me forget about the pain. it just keeps getting worse. i need to find out if i can have kids or not, if not, i want this shit yanked. i dont even know where the damn painkillers are. feel like im gonna barf.
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    uncomfortable uncomfortable

a bit better

found an oooooooold ibuprofen in a pouch of pills i used to carry in my purse. i dont know if its kicking in, the fact that i had coffee and finally got rid of the poop that wouldnt come out the first time, or that ive been keeping busy (cleaning). either way, i feel way better aaaaaand my dvd arrived today (shipped yesterday? i think amazon lied to you :oP). ive missed my lovely boyfriend (geoffrey chaucer), and girlfriend (princess jocelyn) terribly. time to pop this baby in, and get back to ze cleaning.
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    happy happy



lame. theyre not delivering anymore. he gets to drink without me :o\

oh well, seeing as g0sh is to cheap to pay the shipping anyway.
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    disappointed disappointed


i didnt really like colors when i was younger. i would only wear dull, dark colors mostly browns and blues. dark green sometimes. i hated red (primary). a deep dark red was ok if i was in the mood for color. now im like fuckin obsessed with colors. colors here, colors there, colors everywhere!#!@#@!#$! still love browns a blues. especially in dress n skirts. blue is probably my favorite.

ive gotta call jamie. why the hell havent i called jamie.

why arent i trying to figure out what to do with the last of my stuff. if i dont figure this out, ill wont have anywhere to sleep. this damn computer keeps distracting me. i put the away sign up thinkin thatll help, but its doesnt. i always think of something i wanna look up, and go running to google. then livejournal. then im bored and dont wanna do nothin.

im hungry and cold. i dont wanna get up to wash a pot.

i pray soooooomeone is at work when it starts up again. he was really good at encouraging me to do stuff. all the artists are. i like them guys. wish i didnt leave my clay there. maybe ill go pick it up tomorrow, if there is anyone in the office.

damnit. i have to stop eating candy instead of food just because its closer.

woohoo. its raining.
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    hungry hungry