there nothing to look forward to.
i used to have plans/goals.
i fucked them all up.
i wanted to make him proud.
im glad he doesnt know whats become of me.
i used to be so good.
what a disappointment.
i wonder if people still think about me.
i wonder what they remember when they do.
i wish people wouldnt lie to me.
i know what could make things better.
its not impossible.
maybe it is.
i guess ill have to wait.