i just did a bit of math and realized exactly how fucked i am. i had an idea, but never bothered to do the math cause i didnt want to think about it. oh. my. god. i am sooo fucked. i kinda had a plan cause i thought that other loan was gonna go through, and now that it hasnt i am really, really, screwed. im gonna sit here and do some more math and figure how much i need to be making to get out of this lovely mess. if not im gonna put a fuckin gun on that damn credit card and be done with it.