i was up at 5:30am. i was so confused because i was lying there wide awake, didnt know what time it was and it was still dark out. i thought i might have slept through the whole day. i must be getting less, and less depressed. i used to be able to sleep day. now even with the melatonin i sleep just about 8 hours a day. ok, well not today cause i ended up going back to bed around 8 till 12 cause i was trying to study. its like my body shuts itself down when im not happy. if im ok then i sleep my 8 hours and im fine the whole day. if im somewhere i dont want to be or i have to do something i dont want to do, then i want go back to sleep. its probably why i get sleepy before class, even if ive just woken up. ive decided i dont have nearly as much reading to do as i thought, and there are things that can wait, and other things that have to wait wether i like it or not. right now i what i really need to do is read what i havent and maybe a bit further so that i dont fail any tests. thats it. oh, and find a job and credit cards with lower interest. now which of those things should i do right this second? i say find credit cards cause im not ready to pull myself away from the computer just yet.
my mother of all people liked the pink in my hair. strange.